Sunday, July 22, 2012

Jul 22nd

Is it mere human nature
That we all desire something that is unobtainable?
Even if one knows it is so wrong,
Even if one knows it is unobtainable,
Yet this person still yearns for it.

And I am no exception.

I feel disgusted,
I feel disgusted with myself,
I am disgusting.
For something that I desire, I wish for,
But I cannot obtain,
And I know it is false and delusional.
Yet I still yearn for it,
Yet I still think otherwise.

 How dare I call myself wise?

Sunday, July 8, 2012


"Feelings and memories, they only exist within my heart."
"Though we may pass the same time, or see the same sights. What we hold within out hearts can never be the same."
"Your face, your voice, the image of you, which exist only within me.."


Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Creativity, Delusion and Awakening

         Creativity can be a good thing, but it also has its down side. Creating something non-existence from the creator's mind can usually turn out to be something that is idealistic. On the contrary, if creativity means to add delusional factors to something that already exist or even change the meaning of existing events,  it can be extremely dangerous and deceiving. Of course, the creator will be the culprit as well as the victim, and the original event that was altered only in the creators mind should not be the one to be accused. Delusion is dangerous indeed.
        I have heard of this "If you truly wish for something, then that something will come to life".  It can be true and false at the same time, depends on the circumstance where the it is used. Like I have mentioned above, delusions can not be brought to existence, no matter how hard this individual wishes for it. Just like hard truth cannot be altered, and the sun can alter its shape just due some anonymous person's desire.
        When the creator realizes a belief to be delusional, the only thing this person can do is awakening, instead of altering the truth further to fit into the delusion. Simple yet not easy.
        What would you do when you are trapped in such situation? A situation when you realize something is completely false and delusional? and of course, this delusion can be a false belief, an idea, a piece of knowledge, or even a false assumption of a person. If you were left to make a choice for a withdraw, would you simply walk away from this delusion silently, and never look back; or would you make a call for withdraw, announcing your decision to the ones that matters? Please tell me your answer if you read this blog.

Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Blue Butterfly

My beloved thy,
I promise, I will make you real.
I will make you as realistic as you can be.
I will devote my heart and soul,
I will do what it takes,
To bring you into existence.

EGL work again.

I promise, my next illustration will definitely be EGA...
And..of course, this one is a mana + moitie + Ali project mess up
 Link to DeviantArt